Well here goes. I am spilling my guts to you DA. Please don't eat me. So I am sort of seeing a guy and have been for a few months now. I broke up with my boufriend of three years because I like the new man so much. BUT here is the kicker. Out of nowhere my old flame shows up. Let me give you a background check here. This guy was my first love. He still owns a piece of my heart and always will. But he isn't exactly what you would call...how to put it gently...a life partner. He doens't have a car, doesn't have a job, lives with his parents, has two kids by two different women, not financially stable. But he is so nice. But anyway back to my problem. There is also another guy that I had a history with that still likes me as well. We still hang out but I didn't know until very recently that he still felt the same way. Then there are all of the other males at school that seem to be infatuated with me. What is a girl to do when three men are pouring their hearts out to you and you only have one to give? Can anyone help me? I'm so confused right now. As I asked before. Please don't eat me.

To dream a dream within a dream is living life in pure fantasy. If one lives in a fantasy then what is reality? What is your dream? Would you want to live in your dream? Can your dream turn at the drop of a hat into a nightmare? Could you handle it? Would you be in control or would your dream control you? Can anyone answer me? Or am I just in a dream within a dream, living in a pure fantasy?

Well goodmorning everybody. I'm officially tired as hell and my throat is killing me. Oh my damn it hurts!! I'll live I suppose. Has been too long since I wrote in a journal I don't even remember when the last time was. I'm a little rusty so bear with me. To all who know me, I'm Tosha. To those who don't I'm Ahsotan. I love my many names. Tis wonderful, yes yes indeed. Oh well, I'm already bored with this. Ta for now. *chirp chirp*